For the record I have no idea how many times I've actually said that I'm doing this, but it can't be far off from that, so it's as good a title as anyway. So...yeah, prepare for another ramble. Which for the record...that's pretty much what this place is going to be...forever. It's a place for me to ramble on. Used to stick these in my weekly vlogs but I haven't done those for some time so I guess that's what this is for now.
So at the start of this week (which as of right now is yesterday morning) I made this point of saying "Right, this is going to be the week where I get my shit sorted" and so far this week...doesn't feel any different. Today and yesterday has been basically like every other week. In fact whenever I say that to myself, it seems to always go the same way. It's not exactly like it's been a bad week or anything it just...doesn't feel any better than usual.
Why is that? Well I guess I feel like it's because I'm never really doing anything different, or new. But the reason for that is that I don't really know what to do. I know I need to find a job but I don't know what more or what else I can do. Nobody else seems to have any suggestions either. So logically then if finding a job is difficult (and considering where I live has one of the worst joblessness rates in the country, it's not surprising that it is) the solution must be to make money another way. Agreed, but how? Again, I don't have an answer.
And because I don't have an answer, whenever I try to fill my time with things so it doesn't feel like a waste of time, it ends up being the same old stuff. And who knows, maybe the YouTube or Twitch channel will take off, maybe this book I'm writing will be a best seller. Maybe some other project I'm barely thinking about will be the big thing. I don't know. but considering I've been trying a lot of this stuff for a while, it seems unlikely. So logically, i should try something else. And I don't know what.
I guess until I do though, might as well keep working on what I'm doing now. Better than just watching TV or playing games all day!